Montöristen by Carl-Mikael Ström
“After my son was born, it occurred to me that the whole thought about the self is a contradiction”.
In Ströms perspective, pregnancy was an abstract process, which didn’t become real until he held his son for the first time. Confronted by the immensity of birth, and becoming a father, he questioned his own importance.
Carl-Mikael understood his unimportance. A feeling about the vision of his inner self. Being present was more important than being a father. He tried to fit those emotions into thoughts. It led him into writing approximately 1700 journal pages during his son’s first year.
From this long stream of consciousness’ notes, very few parts are intact in the final book. After selecting and narrowing down the final script, Ström thought it was not honest enough. “By removing I was revealing. The text in itself is not mutilated. Its voice is louder by presenting it this way. You get the story, it becomes more sincere. One can see this text either as images or as words. It does not matter to me. How many images I have gone through to end up with this selection? Are the images mutilated by the way I have treated them? I believe they sing.”
Neither the images or text are the explanation of each other. Ström finds himself torn between his desire for creation and the reality of family life.
Ström believes that an image can take a lot of different forms and that time passing inevitably shows. Even in an image. Convinced that there is always more behind what you intend to say, he tries to accept the inevitable restraints and lies of creation. It comes down to the observer to position himself towards his work.